I'm feeling very clear-headed today. For several months now I've felt like my aura was cloudy. I've felt out of sorts and not quite myself. Today I had an epiphany of what my problem was: I've been losing perspective. I've been too concerned about what other people were thinking and more worried about the offenses that given to me than the offenses I've given to others. People are too complicated. I can't control what they think and do, but I can control me. I'm all about controlling me. I tell me what to do all the time. Ah, yes, deep thoughts. Cleansing to share and yet pretentious and irritating to read back later. I really think I'm on to something here though.Today was another day at work. I didn't get as much done as I would've liked despite working my full 8 hours. I think I'm going to see if I can stay late a few nights and see if I can get to a point where I don't dread coming to work because of that feeling of hopelessness. I'm cleaning my kitchen today. I'm actually almost done washing all of my dishes. I haven't had every single dish washed for months. I also get lazy before I'm done, but today I'm determined. I will wash these dishes and cook some turkey helper and watch Britney Spears on How I Met Your Mother. That sounds lovely.
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